My wish list

Now that it is summertime I am the only one waking up early in my house. Soon after I awaken I spend a little time doing what I want before I am off to work.  I tend to my flowers, watering them and enjoying the morning sounds with birds singing and the sun just up for a new day. When I water my flowers I pray, I meditate and I daydream.

I remember summers as a child. In honor of my childhood thoughts I created a wish list. Some wishes are playful and some are deep from my heart.

I wish…

•  I could hear Nolan’s laugh
• I had a time machine
• I didn’t have to welcome another grieving parent to a support group on FB or in person at Compassionate Friends.  It is sad there are so many of us. 
• I didn’t cry everyday
• I didn’t have baggy tired eyes from the daily crying
• I didn’t have to sometimes wear a mask to work
• Sam could have his brother back 
• I could be as joyful and happy as I know Nolan and my  loved ones are in heaven
  I will keep tending to my flowers.   I continue praying, meditating and dreaming…..