Today is the first day in almost 3 years that I do not have to wear a mandatory mask at work.
Three years where my patients did not see how happy I was to see them.
Sure, they could hear my voice – but the smile was hidden behind my mask.
And I have to admit sometimes my mask absorbed my tears. I still cry at work at times. Less often then before. Maybe after a parent asked about my family or how I was doing. Most of the time I am good, but on the hard days… well that mask would hide my emotions when I needed it to.
Sometimes my wearing a mask was scary for the patient. In the last year my young patients found it unusual to see someone with a mask in public.
And why was mommy and daddy wearing them too at my visit? Scary. On top of being down to a diaper and having a stranger touching you. This creates an unhappy young patient. Hard to talk to parents when their child is crying in fear.
Don’t think I was not a believer in wearing a mask.
I know I would have gotten COVID-19 infection a lot sooner if I had not worn a mask. I appreciate my patients had to wear a mask as well. (I know which patient gave me COVID – and she was too young to wear it)
I will still put a mask on at the appropriate times. When I am with a cold or cough that I don’t want to spread my infection. Or my patient may be contagious (COVID-19, RSV, influenza, whooping cough, pneumonia, etc) and I do not want to get sick.
But today, March 27, 2023, I will rejoice in this day where my office and I can have a bit of normal back that we so well deserve- don’t you think?
Now I can share the best thing I wear everyday.
3 thoughts on “Just smile”
You sound as though you are at some peace with your sons death … it still hurts you a lot though … I lost my husband seven years ago and still find myself looking at his picture and my heart aches.
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Yes. Our pain is still with us. We carry it forever. Because we love them so much.
Hugs ❤️ We have always felt your smile even through the mask but will be glad to see it again! Thank you for sharing.